Problem

*Beep* my dad.  Get his stupid sister outta here and his worthless good-for-nothing niece.  STOP GETTING AT WHAT I POST ON MY BLOG WHEN YOU THROW SHIT AT ME YOU NIGGER.

Living With an Attitude

Why does my dad let other people have fun, and they go home and do great things?  I just don't believe we are robots made to be too stressed out.  I don't think that food in our stomach is what gives us the strength to stand up.  I don't know how kids would learn to have an attitude.  I never did.

He seemed strict, but it was my mom who told me how to behave until my brother was born, when he mattered.  I mean, it was nice to be with a kid.

Father's Heritage

I'd rather have paternal heritage in Pennsylvania and New York than anywhere else?

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Dream

So, I was in 3 of Ginny Kopf's classes, and she was having me sign up for more that would stretch until night.  I was just gonna add 1 more at 1:45 P.M.  I was on the side of a bar with a gray carpeted floor and putting my legs up the ledge.  It took awhile.  I think she was going to comfort me for being mad.  My dad had just sorta shoved me a lot, like beating me but not bruising me.  We had a small puppy I was playing with, a bit cartoony, like a book by the author of The Hobbit, Roverendam.  A dog by the beach who goes on fantasies.  I did imagine someone in the water as like art in the dream.  So, the dog was on the floor, and bubbles turned up in suds at the tips of its hair.  It was so cute and like its joy and it was probably worried about getting older.  We put something on its coat or something, and the suds didn't appear.  I got so mad, someone did it I said, and I kept yelling sharply, my parents and brother.  I cornered my dad without fear.  I left the room with a sword.  He had a rifle, and I went up to him so he wouldn't shoot.  The little dog was my obsession.  Also, I was asking Ginny for help.  The computer had printed out paper on the keyboard, which was black, a sort of connected thing like a laptop.  It printed out a screenshot of itself and like a printer, too, I think, that wasn't being used.  That was the end.  My hands weren't in the picture, just the machine.

Resting

Need to sleep|rest now.

Too bad about the cursing, but I said I was being attacked and said shut up and why and that I meant what I meant..  I just think that maybe I should have calmed down and think maybe my dad wasn't hurt.  My mom is being weird, getting mad at him for how I behave when he is not my mom|carer and "combined" with something he did wrong to me, which was after.

Problem

My mom is now a piece of shit.  I don't think she's like domineering in any way, shape, nor form.  Why do you bother to uphold her?  She's just a piece of shit?  Why?  She's acting smart with my dad, but she's just a piece of shit.  I WANT MY DAD YOU NIGGER.  GO *BEEP* YOURSELF.

Problems About Class

I guess Ginny knows I will get mad since she has Pennsylvania heritage and is racist.  I can't remember what made me mad.  I was just upset that she like wouldn't stop poking at certain thoughts that were screaming in my head and I just couldn't function, didn't think to leave the room, just kinda like shook around, you know?  She just keeps getting like antsy and having to like insult me and I got really mad.  It's just stupid.  It's wrong.  It's not something I think about!  I just won't accept it.  Do you want me to be mean to you sometimes?  |3,  What should I do when I feel that my life is sorta being made undignified and uncomfortable?  I won't hurt anyone, but I'll get mad.  I mean what the fuck is your issue?  What do you think I am?  ARGH YOU STUPID LATE BOOMERS.  YOU PIECE OF SHIT.  You're nothing.  You're all sinners.  Why am I constantly being told I'm some shit from my dad?  You know it's wrong.  You can't just hurt me.  Aren't you stupid and worthless?

I think my mom is mad.  When I ate with my dad peacefully after I was asking him why he was acting sending me secret messages and mad he left off on bad notes just because of my race.  He left and looked for something for me and kept making noises that eventually like zonked me out.  He's just being TRASH racist doesn't let me be coy.  SHUT UP YOU!  The way he did it was to get his back.  He's just a worthless animal, and I shouldn't have to be like him.  I deserve something else.

I think Ginny is mad at my mom because she doesn't let me get out anger, but I mean Ginny is older than my mom.  :|  She's not as cute, but she's sweeter.  She's about the same age, so she's kinda the same but not of the same class so not like a speed racer to the finish racially..

My dad made me feel like a waitress made my stomach feel funny, and it doesn't tickle in Ginny's class in theater and I think it hurts her and ELLEN DEGENERES HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH THIS YOU *BEEP* *BEEP*  I think my mom is mad at him for me being mad at her.  She is a piece of shit.  Stop hurting him you piece of shit.  I should *beep* you but you're just a *** object.  YOU'RE JUST GETTING BACK AT ME YOU NIGGER.